My Achy Breaky Heart

Now I know what it is to have a grieving spirit. In the past 2 weeks I've have heard of two atrocities.


NORTH KOREA
One was when I was at my friend's house and we were trying to find something on Netflix to watch. So we both like documentaries and love Asia so when we found these 2 documentaries on North Korea we had to watch them.

In one of the documentaries a man from the middle east went to North Korea to reach a goal of healing 100 patients with cataracts. He, as so few have, was able to come in a treat the North Korean people. They said kids don't develop cataracts but when malnutritioned, anyone can get it. And there are several children there who develop this.

And the North Koreans are so deceived that when they were healed of their cataracts, instead of thanking this doctor or his team, the people would immediately go to the picture of their leaders, Kim Jung Il and Kim Sung Il, and bowed and thanked them with great enthusiasm. And then after this whole room full of people, over 100 patients, had realized they were healed thanked and basically worshiped these men, who were the reason most of them were malnutrioned and developed cataracts in the first place.

And as I stare at this screen watching over 100 people worship these men and knowing that a lot of the country sees them as gods, I felt sick. I was angry and I started to cry.

How dare these men lead God's creation to worship them! How dare they take this from God? This is for God and God alone. I don't know if I ever declared that before in my life before this, but I couldn't stand it! When you experience God's sovereignty and His love, it is so easy to see how no one can measure up unless they are God.

CHURCH: WHO GETS THE GLORY AGAIN??

Yesterday my mom was telling me of this church whose pastor was convicted of child molestation. And the church accepted him back and allowed him to be the pastor again.
I definitely support loving people no matter what they have done. BUT what's the point in setting standards for your leaders if they totally disregard it and then you allow them to receive their authority back? He needs some time with God first. He needs to sort through his stuff. And if the leaders in that church were asking God what they should do, I can guarantee God wouldn't have told them to put him back as the pastor.

Paul addressed sexual impurity in the church and how it should be dealt with.
Moses killed a guy and God had him wait 40 years in the desert.

And it didn't stop there. They had this scroll that was supposedly several years old, gave him the belt that held it together and then this bishop guy was declaring him a king in God's kingdom (which I believe we are only co-heirs and have only been called sons, soldiers, princes but I don't remember any of us being referred to as kings)
God is called the King of Kings.

Then they sat this man in a chair while these big buff guys lifted him up and paraded him around the stage.

Again, God is a jealous God and they are perverting what I believe in. It was disgusting as my mom told me about this video she watched of all this. I was so angry! It was like they were trying to lift this guy up and give him undeserved praise while using Christian-ese to justify what they were doing.

WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE?

What's the difference between the leaders of North Korea and this church?

A LOT!!

It's one thing to have a man that does not say he belongs to Christ to try and take the glory and honor that belongs to God but for someone who calls themselves a Christian to try to take what belongs to God, no no no NO!!

That is intolerable! God has killed for less. My mom said "I'm surprised the congregation didn't walk out." And I thought if I was there I would do that, but thinking about it more I just get so angry that I think I would say something. The more I swish this around in my mind the more I want to get up there stop the whole thing and show how wrong it is. It's just unbelievable.

MY ACHY BREAKY HEART

These people who try to take away God's honor, glory and praise and love.

How dare they?!

And inside my heart aches and my spirit grieves. When the spirit grieves it makes me feel like my soul wants to puke, like Noh Face from Spirited Away.

It's weird because I don't feel sick in my stomach, it's in my chest. Kind of like the feeling when you have horrible sick dream and as you wake up that feeling affects your whole body. You don't even want to start your day because you feel so disturbed, so sickened.

That's how I feel when I see and hear about these people doing this kind of crap.