Without Boundaries: G Dragon

"Too fast to live, too young to die" -Kown Ji Yong (G-Dragon)

This blog is about my journey of growing as God intended and not bending to expectations or approval of others. I'm starting a series of entries called "Without Boundaries" which will be about people who show God's out-of-the-box qualities. People who break the walls of the box we live in. They stretch limits, they're original. They live with their hearts. They are living.

"G" who? o_0
So, my first person is G-Dragon, who's real name is Kwon Ji Yong. He is a member of the korean hip hop group, Big Bang. Besides the success Big Bang has had, his own album and collaboration with band member T.O.P has won awards. CNN listed G Dragon 30th in 50 Reasons Why Seoul is the World's Greatest City

What's He Like?
After watching videos of G-dragon, he is a playful person who likes to joke around and have a good time and then when he's working he submerges himself and is very focused and serious.

A Real Face
What I started to notice was the way his "face" was different from other asian celebrities. When someone is famous long enough the things they say and their smiles become almost forced and sort of on queue. Like performing lines. Also when you take into account general asian culture of being overly polite and really vague about your true feelings and thoughts. G-dragon has written several songs for the band, which is rare for asian musicians to write their own music, that are very personal.

Fashionista
At some point you will see young people obsessing about how they look, constantly checking in the mirror to see if their hair is okay. And they'll find opportunities to brag about what kind of shoes they have or how cool they looks. Which isn't much different from the average person but he doesn't even do that. I've watched a lot of behind the scenes videos with him in them and he barely mentions his clothes, which is interesting since he's been labeled a "fashionista" for influencing korean fashion. And the guy is only 23 years old!

One Word: HEART
G Dragon doesn't hide who he is and what he likes. He puts his heart into what he does and you can tell. I greatly admire and respect him for how hardworking he is but keeping his heart. He's human and there are some things I disagree with that he's done, and his style isn't always to my taste. But, he is unique in that he shows his heart. Western culture doesn't always promote this ("Be tough. Be a man. Stop being so sensitive." I think we've heard one or all of those at one time) and asian culture is even more restrictive in how you should express yourself.

Check out his music video with Big Bang: Big Bang- Haru Haru

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If God Didn't See Me Hurting I Would Die From Heartbreak

Sorry I haven't updated my blog for a while. One reason was that the internet was out for about a week but mostly it's because in a way I was avoiding God.

A while ago I asked God to start speaking to me in more ways, more like actually talking I can hear. An actually voice that is not mine in my head. I wanted more. And when I would wake up the next day and realize God didn't appear in a dream, go to bed that night asking again, try to talk with him, and go to bed disappointed, I felt hurt. So I stopped talking all together. I avoided Him. I didn't touch my bible. I didn't talk to Him. I would think about Him. I didn't want to face what I was feeling by writing it down 'cause I knew He'd be there. I knew He knew what I was thinking and feeling anyway but I didn't want to face it.

Through lots of time and facing the issue, it boiled down to: ask God and sit and watch patiently while you trust Him to come through.

I also learned that my biggest fear in life is being disappointing. I don't care if someone has expectations and I don't meet them... as long as they aren't close. There are people in my life that I care if I disappoint them in certain things. I value the standing I have with them. I want them to see me a certain way. I am afraid of not being the person they think I am.

And the person I fear that happening with the most is the person that knows me the best. That's why if I don't think about it I can pretend maybe He won't see it. Maybe if I stop talking to Him then He won't hear my insecurity and just look past me. It's funny when we are afraid of something happening, what we would like to happen is the thing we ACTUALLY hate the most. If I knew God just looked past me, didn't see my hurt, that would kill me. To be honest, the pain of the reality of that (if it was possible)would probably kill me for real. There is no heartbreak worst than knowing God doesn't care.